claire

happy

2007-02-20T21:34:21Z

i think im happy
no wait... i know im happy.

i seem to have found that lovely and perfect boy that i accedently missed while i was dating someone else.

Winter Dance week

2007-01-03T23:08:49Z

Winter dance week was good, but i hardly had time to breath and be alone... which i kind of wanted.
we are very much considering starting an asheville rapper sword time, we just need one more person, and fiddle player and swords.

two of the most beautiful moments of my life happend over the week, they are as fallows:
1. We played The Game, and then got out the ping-pong table for a game of round robin ping-pong, which is pretty cool as is. however, we had more people than paddles, so one person used a mushroom, and one used a book. we gave up on trying to keep the ball on the table. Chris got out his fiddle, and played us a pretty little tune. Chloe requested a jig, and everyone started in on our rapper swoard step, and contiuned to play ping-pong. so we had a round robin game of ping pong, played with a mushroom and a book, in a beautiful jig step. it was lovely.
2. At the end of the dance on newyears, everyone still out that late stood in a circle and held hands for the goodnight song, which bob led, but only sang the normal "good night to you all, etc." Chloe Able Taija and I had been excited about getting to sing Ring It In. so once everyone started dirfting away, I said that we should sing it anyway. So the four of us started singing as loudly as we could. The people standing neer is starting singing with us, more and more people in the room joined in, until eventually we were back to everyone holding hands in a ciricle all the way around the room singing. Bob just smiled at us and shook his head.
After that event, i was standing with Annie Fain, and Emily Willy, and talking about how amazing and beautiful what had just happend was. Annie Fain said "Well, the moral of the story is that if you do anything loud enough and confidently enough, everyone will join in"
Emily said "Yep. I bet if you started dancing around the room like a chicken, and you did it confidently enough, everyone would join in"
so-- i started marching around the room flapping my wings... sure enough... i eventually got about twenty five people to prance around and flap their wings in a ring around the dance floor. people i dont even know. It was amazing. No one even wanted to know why they were doing it.

life is good.

Hazel got married, and Chase got engaged,and Sarah Webb is now engaged. We're getting old
oh, and there is a new boy. We'll see how that goes when he gets back from being across the world.

frostblaze @ 2006-12-10T09:38:00

2006-12-10T14:38:13Z

In honer of the christmas spirt, my mother took down the curtian in the downstairs bathroom, to use to rod to hang up orniments in the kitchen windown. we have new neighbors on that side of the house.

There is sand in my bed. God knows how it got there.

Isaac is home. We are recording Ol' Cook Pot, Bye Bye Baby, and the gothic cowboys orginal "I'd Love to Love You" on monday. I'm excited. i also stole lots of music from his computer...
What a beautiful face i have found in this place.

NCTC

2006-10-29T13:44:40Z

We won again.
this year the shows were better than last year at state.
NCTC is the best part of the school year i think.

we got,
Production Disigin
Todd got Best director
honerable mention Ensamble acting
Honerable mention for feamale actors
Lauren Lampley
Amber McCleary
And best actor went to little Tucker Shelton.
we were rated as "superior"
and we are going to state!

The most amazing part is that on tursday night, Lauren Williams was dancing for some community band concert, she did a high leap off the stage and broke both of her feet. She couldnt get out of the hospitle in time, so Maren had to fill in for her... She learned all of her lines on the way up, and we organized all sorts of diffrent people for out set trasition. She pulled it off beautifully.

im really excited we get to go to state again... I'm really attached to this years class, i think it's because of the amout of time i spent with them out of class this year, writting the play... good bonding time.

I wrote a poem. and it's a true story

2006-10-16T22:25:50Z

There are lipstick marks on the spout of the water cooler
we must've run out of cups

frostblaze @ 2006-10-15T09:52:00

2006-10-15T13:53:09Z

i am, working again.
doing nearly the exact same job as before
im the youngest, again
but this time, not by a couple years, but by at least 40
today im working with a lady who looks like she has stuck
a little butter knife
into an eletical soket
for the past 50 years of her life.

We went to molly's house after work
it was snuggly
and cold, but only halves at a time,
because there was a fire
(and also a caravan of red necks)

frostblaze @ 2006-09-17T20:04:00

2006-09-18T00:02:46Z

thrusday: im a bad person. again. this seems strangly framlier... hum.
Friday: our first dance class! it was wonderful, the teacher is all kinds of cute and happy and not a crazy dance lady (why taking dance at the flat rock playhouse and not from one of the dance studios is better). We did the 1920s, and learned exciting things. after the class we went to the house of reed (it's reed's house only when chloe's at school) and watched garden state. it make's me all happy and want to be in love again. tucker told me he wishes he was in love with me. hehe
Saturday: went to the folkart center to see forrest's clogging team dance. they were pretty amazing, i've never actully enjoyed watching clogging before. i cant click my heals. Then to asheville, where tucker and i had lunch at rosetta's and picked up chloe and came back here for a little photo shoot.
After pictures, we headed to the dance, which was tons-o-fun, but im still a bad person
Sunday: one year! it's amazing. i wanted to buy cherries for our senior picnic, and run around explaning to everyone why i did so. the picnic was alright i guess, i'm a tad sunburned me thinks. we played with egg for the first time in a long time, so that's good.
goodbye

frostblaze @ 2006-09-10T18:16:00

2006-09-10T22:16:18Z

last night i went to pick up fritz's MOM from the air port
bow chica bow wow.

luke was on the same flight, that was excting.
i made peach jam
my skrt still isnt done
i got two nancey drew books, and a hardy boy's book from the library. i am so excited about our play.
today i hiked with tucker, al and our dogs.

i wish it was fall

frostblaze @ 2006-08-12T11:12:00

2006-08-12T15:17:34Z

please excuse my typical "i'm a teenager and things suck" livejournal entry
but it's true, i am a teenager, and things do suck.

i think i want to learn how to dance.
today we are going to see the new dancey-folk movie, which is kind of a macacistic act on my part. They always make me so sad... and i spend the rest of the day, bouncing around, and relizing that that is not dancing.

I really wish i had gotten my shit together and done something this summer, i havnt even made a book, or started the quilt i was planning on. Lack of money causes all sorts of problems.
I dont think i've ever said this in my life, but i may be ready for school to start back. Things are just boring. I'll be sad when everyone leaves again, but that hasnt sunk in yet.
i have been close to crying everytime i realize, that in a short year, Al and i will be parting our ways. That is soon. That is sad.

Umm. Drum circles, and dancing...
oh! fire spinning! im going to learn how to spin fire, so that i can pretend to be cool...

summer so far

2006-07-01T03:04:35Z

i must say, this has been the worst summer yet.
feel no need to read, 'cause

i started off my first day of break, by slidding in the dentest chair, and having oxygen poured into my nose. they tried to get the i.v. into me, of course i was not happy about.. "take a deep breath though your nose" ..oxygen makes you high..
i could feel the drugs slipping up my arm. i thought "i wont remember this later" and tryed to keep my eyes open to watch the light slide up and down the celing, and the odd spray-painted clouds move around.
i woke up about an hour later with wads of gauze between my teeth, and my mouth and throat compleatly dry except for the trickle of blood that had esscaped from the gauze. great.
I got home, and poor issac, unknowing, called to come and get his covalent bondage shirt... he came by and looked like he was about to cry when he saw me. it was ok, i felt like crying too.
the pain pills they put me on, made me halusonate, and that in turn made me panic. I was holding an ice pack to my face, and i swear to god logan was talking to me through it. He then called on the non-frozen phone, and made me extreamly upset by not knowing what i was talking about. I really do hate not having a grasp of what is going on around me, i dont understand why people do it for fun.
the week past with little excitement, and lots of liquid food. i gained back all the weight i had lost from being pukeing and such before, because i could only eat bascily sweet food.

So, I knew that it was the most pain i had ever been in.
The next week, i got to scratch that idea.

I went out to brasstown, still not eating anything too soild, but feeling sick too. Early monday morning, i got out of bed to go to the bathroom, but didnt make it very far. Ever started to passout because of pain? I got chole to get a thermometer... fantastic! a fever!
no class for me on monday.
no class for me tuseday either.
mom came to get me on wendsday, and went home to quickly go to the doctor
This was the frist little/middle i missed seince i was six, and my last one. That my friends is heart breaking.

I got some huge ass horse pills, and more pain pills. Even stronger than the ones from before (but there was much less talk of picking up people in the tacobell parking lot through soild objects this time) Stayed stationary in bed, untill finaly i had to go to the hospitle
there, they loving shoved a tube into my bladder, and stuck a morphine drip into my hand.
i had a nice little button to press to get an extra dose. i was scared to use it, and it made my arm hurt.
got out later, for more pain pills, some anti biotic, and the same horse-pills.

i'm healing and as kristin says, i've "filled my sickness quota for the next five years"

great! i also watched palendroms, which you should rent if you want a super-depressing, very-interesting movie.
oh! i left the house the day before yesterday to go the movie store with al, yesterday to go the dance (and dance a couple) and today to go the asheville with joooly to see erinn nelson!
i'll be ok.

frostblaze @ 2006-06-11T23:44:00

2006-06-12T03:44:19Z

im so so so sleepy, but im waiting until really late so i can sleep most of the pain away tommorrow.
i'm scared.

and also im going to NY to watch plays 24-7
i'll see you later.

frostblaze @ 2006-05-27T13:29:00

2006-05-27T17:31:50Z

screw closure.

im going to be louise brooks at school on monday.
i've got to go buy some eyeliner, so i can wear a half-ounce of it.... circle my eyes about a half-inch around.
it will be... fun.

advance theater final monologues made me so sad... i have piles of things people gave me and a list of nice things that people wrote about me.
can i say once again, how much i respect todd weakly? yes

frostblaze @ 2006-05-20T16:20:00

2006-05-20T20:22:39Z

the librarian thinks im crazy..
i borrowed...

the music man (the video)
the music man (the sound track)
Gilbert & Sullivan Weekend (the CD)
and
Sweeney Todd (the demon barber of fleet street.)

frostblaze @ 2006-05-20T13:42:00

2006-05-20T17:44:08Z

wouldnt having friends be nice?

im putting music on the computer, which is pretty exciting i guess... actually, it takes a long time.
lots of a long time.

so there is a much greater chance of me burning CDs for people now... yay?

LEAF pictures

2006-05-17T21:52:08Z

LEAF pictures dont get thought about early enough
so...

(see? my arm wont tan up here)

album cover:

once i get photo shop i'll fix it up

and here are the poppies from wizard of oz

photos and such

2006-05-17T20:02:55Z

yessir
first will be a post just with the one prom picture i already have online
i dont have photo shop.. so...

frostblaze @ 2006-05-07T02:31:00

2006-05-07T06:32:00Z

i think as long as there is a dance floor and you have someone to dance with, you are allowed to dance.

um... we polkaed to rap and did a little swing to some hip hop.
i bet i had more fun than the people standing in the corners...

it was weird and silly but alright.
and i got to be fancy.

frostblaze @ 2006-05-03T21:55:00

2006-05-04T01:57:22Z

last year we had started tech before the middle of april...
and all the cues were already there...

at least this year there arn't as many annoying songs,
and i get to do the real dirty work...

like lighting glenda...
im missing 1-2 days of leaf for this...

frostblaze @ 2006-04-29T12:40:00

2006-04-29T16:40:41Z

i went to go see TMBG last night, and eeeek!
yay!

everybody conga
im not fucking kidding
everybody conga
im not fucking kidding.

frostblaze @ 2006-04-26T22:24:00

2006-04-27T02:26:19Z

i didnt talk today at school.
at all.
to raise awareness for the fact there there .is. discrimanation aginst the GBLTs in our school schools.
and the fact that people wont talk about it
and that people feel like they cant talk about it.

umm... on a compleatly diffrent, trendy girl note, im going to prom
with al..
woo.

frostblaze @ 2006-04-21T09:22:00

2006-04-21T13:22:51Z

i cant find the time
to write my mind
the way i want it to read.

frostblaze @ 2006-04-12T22:02:00

2006-04-13T02:03:57Z

im already homesick

i wish my home wasnt three cubic feet
and didnt have to move around
in his little truck

i wish my home was steady and there to come to...
always.

frostblaze @ 2006-03-26T18:08:00

2006-03-26T23:11:11Z

logan's birthday is tomorrow, so i'm putting together his birthday package
i'd very much like to have him come home...

anyway, i'd like to show you this picture that i think turned out quite nice

thats nice

2006-03-25T15:57:01Z

keeping busey is deffently a good thing.
i am ready to haved something else exciting happen

three dances over the week...
nice stuff i tell you.

sleepy

2006-03-08T21:59:14Z

my birthday came and passed without too much excitment
well, actaully, friday and saturday were pretty good
brasstown always makes me happy
i cant belive i wasnt sure if i wanted to go...

and i got to guest sing with big papa and the sheep puppies (hehe)

um.
love?
here it is:

and also this: